Your inability to discern evidence of spiritual messages is caused by a lack of Faith. You need to repent and come to establish a personal relationship with Jesus our Savior who wants you to purge you sinful thoughts and desires and come to Him. Why not go immediately to the nearest Chruch in sack cloth and ashes begging forgiveness from Him that gave you the breath of life. Confession is good for the soul. That is why Jesus instituted the sacrament.
It may be disappointing to the rabid clique . . . however,
I’m in redemptive dialogue with my Lord Jesus The Christ throughout the day.