I agree some Historical authors, “Kemp” comes to mind, oftentimes struggled and mightily so before God. We do as well at times. But on a ‘daily’ I don't think this is what Christ expects of us as those being set free to love Him and serve Him with Joy. To imagine oneself “Begging” as if there is any possibility He would not forgive unless I beg hard enough or strong enough does not compute with the Christ I have know. Rather more as a loving Father would hear His child.
“To imagine oneself “Begging” as if there is any possibility He would not forgive unless I beg hard enough or strong enough does not compute with the Christ I have know.”
This is true insofar as Jesus promises to respond to anything asked in His name, (Jn. 14:14) which is consistent with His character and will, in faith. And the reason the poor in spirit belong to the kingdom of heaven, and the meek shall inherit the earth is not due to their own holiness, but because such is a characteristic of salvific faith. Those to whom Jesus gives eternal life to are those who follow Him, (Jn. 10:27,28) and repent when convicted of not doing so. And thus God chastens believers, so they will not be condemned with the rest of the world. (1Cor. 11:32)