Yes I know, but where the reposnibility for their deeds? You wrote ealrier that all men are responsible for their sins. All they did was what God willed. Judas was used for a purpose and so was Paul. It was not their choice; why should it be their repsonsiblity?
They did exactly what they wanted to do. Judas was unredeemed and therefore he loved money and not God.
Paul was redeemed and he loved God alone.
They both did exactly what they wanted to do, according to the spirit within them.
Because it was what they ultimately wanted to do.
The unregenerated will WANT to sin and the regenerated will WANT to repent.
And yes, God chooses who to regenerate and who to leave in their sins. God elects; Christ redeems; the Holy Spirit sanctifies.
That's life as we know it, according to the word of God.