Well, maybe God tested you the way Jesus tested the Pharisees, and you called him a moron. Where was your faith?
Dear kosta, let's just cut to the chase here. It appears the central problem is you have closed your soul against the Author of your own being. In so doing, you have also detached yourself from the Logos, divine Truth which is the basis of human reason. Then you write to justify your rebellion against God your Father, and are evidently trying to recruit others to join you in apostasy. I don't know why you do this; but my heart goes out to you. For you have chosen a miserable course....
I do not know how one can live without God.
May the prodigal son return to the house of his Father Who loves him.