I think you might be surprised at how little "free will" you really have. Your life is ruled by circumstances well beyond your control. But if you accept that God is in control (totally in control), this will give you comfort. If you think your life is being determined by your free will choices and then you find yourself in a situation where you are being ruled by circumstances outside your control, this will result in panic.
The last thing I want in my life is "free will". I want God's will in my life.
I want God's will in my life.
Right now I have several choices how to spend my Friday afternoon. No one compells me to post stuff about Catholicism on FR day in, day out. It is something I choose to do.
The wish, that you also mention, to NOT have all that free will is echoed in this familiar prayer: "Thy will be done on earth as it is in Heaven". Or, "remove this chalice from me; but not what I will, but what thou wilt".