There are two levels/meanings of Salvation: first, God applies the blood of Jesus to your heart and you are cleansed to absolute cleanest state of Jesus Christ; second, He, residing in your cleansed human spirit, transforms you, delivers you, saves you from the fallen state of your behavior mechanism that you inherited from Adam in the human race. The first is His fulfillment of His promise and thus to be taken at an 'amen' level of faith. He is Jehovah Shammah. The second is a process whereby you lean on His strength in adversity, and run to His protection when evil assaults your soul. These concepts come directly from the Old Testament where 'batah' (to lean on), 'hasa' (to run to for cover), and 'amen' (absolute belief in the Promise of God because He cannot lie) are found and explained on many occasions of the scriptures.
To exercise faith in Christ as a means to strengthen you so YOU can do all that you can do to be worthy is to focus upon the second meaning of salvation and miss the first and most vital to your eternal destiny. Satan enjoys such dissembling because it elevates your 'works' to focus upon in striving and leaves you dead in spirit in your fallen state because you have not the Spirit in you so you are none of His.
Thank you for sharing your testimony and conversion. I wish you all the best and that God continue to be your guiding light and Christ your salvation.
We will take similar journeys and hopefully meet each other in the here after.
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It’s sad to see a “Christian” religion that does not believe in the Eternal Life that starts at salvation and is void of the indwelling of the Holy Spirit.