I really am answering you in what I hope is the most effective way to communicate it.
Sorry typo at the critical point:
Further, as you read, you start to get the feeling that you aren’t getting the same father from reading that you know.
The question is: What are all the possible reasons for this feeling of disconnection?
Not sure about your question. I am fully satisfied with my Father being in charge of my life, Father knows best :>)