We live and die by the hierarchy.
If I did not have a priest telling me what to and when, I think I would just freak out.
I can't be bothered with any "personal relationship with Christ" business.
If my priest can't do it for me, I am not interested.
That sounds terrible. Do you really mean this, or are you being sarcastic?
If I didn't have a personal relationship with God through his Son, Jesus Christ, I would not want to live!