If you are no longer a scientologist, or whatever, what do you see youself as? Buddhist, Christian, agnostic, aethist?
The best way I can describe it is by analogy to 'blind sight' where someone has no conscious awareness of seeing, yet they can flawlessly navigate a cluttered room.
I have faith, but I don't feel faith.
Although I do not regard myself as a Christian, I do my best to live by Christian principles. Although I mostly don't believe in God, I try to follow His commandments as best I can. I believe in the End Times, not so much because they are in the Bible, but because of the inertia of a couple millennia of people believing them. I have moral clarity the Satan does exist, and that his works are enjoying near full flower. I know what side I'm on (or more accurately, which side I'm against) in the final battle, yet I don't expect any eternal reward for my service. I expect nothing more than yet another turn of the wheel of life. I suppose I've got a touch of pantheism, as I can see a splinter of the divine in everything. As near as I can figure we live in a wondrous universe, that is utterly devoid of any morality or evil that we don't (or some other agency doesn't) put there.
I haven't really been looking for a replacement practice, either. For some reason that is even more uncomfortable than where I am currently.
Were I looking, I probably would ignore what is said by or about any particular practice, I think the best I could do is know the tree by its fruits.
And if you, Sensei, can make ant sense of all that, please explain it to me...
"Of wisdom generally, I haven't all that much to declare. I find myself more impressed by the mysteries of life and more certain that most of the interesting questions it poses have no persuasive answers, or at least none likely to arrive before I depart the planet. I haven't even settled the question of whether I believe in God. I try to act as if God exists--that is, the prospects of guilt and shame and the moral endorphins that good conduct brings still motivate me to act as decently as I'm able. I suffer, then, some of the fear of religion without any of the enjoyment of the hope it brings. I don't, meanwhile, have a clue about why there is suffering in the world, whether there is an afterlife, or how to explain acts of truly grand altruism or unprofitable evil. You live and you learn, the proverb has it; but in my case, You live and you yearn seems closer to it."