Really? I've seen no end here of people telling me what I believe. Can't I play?
You don't believe it so you are just talking the talk. You aren't a liar. You know everything you think you need to know but you don't believe, really believe in it, right?
I don't believe OR disbelieve it. I think it's irrelevant. I don't WANT to "not believe" and find out what happens. I don't WANT to lose this relationship. I WANT to WANT nothing BUT HIM for the rest of my life. You HAVE to be an adopted child of God (leaving out the pygmy thing). You HAVE to believe in HIM... NOT "believe" that you can never fall away.... DON'T fall away.
Whether I "don't fall away" because it wasn't possible in the first place or "don't fall away" because HE has aided my faith to actually complete the race is not important to me.