I do owe you an apology. I missed in an earlier post where you state you suffer from dyslexia. It has perhaps contributed to your difficulty in writing posts that are understandable.
I see now that you suffer from a disorder that inhibits clear communication, but it is not a psychological one. My snap assumptions on your mental condition (on the basis of your communication skills) were premature.
I thank you for your apology it seems we are talking pass one another.
Some moments and days are better for me which confuses many it just how stress is going on in my life!