[eureka!]

"I was lucky enough to have a great relationship with him, as did two of my three other brothers. The brother who didn't? He was the only one who was really torn up--guilt."

How unfortunate. Dad probably was equally torn up. Still, there were good times I am sure. Lovely tribute. Stay strong and live to make him proud...

[John Robertson]

Stay strong and live to make him proud...

Unexpectedly, I have never felt stronger, or more directed, or wanted more to make him proud than now. And that's all good. Losing a parent is a milestone, of course, a major life-marker.