Yeah, that's probably in my personality profile. I'm not a big fan of uncertainty. I don't like gambling money at all, for example. I don't do extreme sports. Most of my recreation revolves around self-defense -- martial arts and weightlifting lately, as well as firearms expertise. I like security and regular routines.
Now, hopefully you won't pull an "Agamemnon" and preach to me that this makes me some sort of loser who needs to crawl out from behind his rock or something. ;^)
Actually, one could make a case that that was your problem. Your refusal to see there can be more wrong here than
just not having the spirit of independance, or whatever, tells me that you don't want to have to live in a world that
can leave you stranded without a livelihood in spite of all your efforts.
The certainty you cling to is that you will always be OK because you are "open to possiblities"