I see where you are coming from and understand it. I have not, up to this point, been able to put it in words. There is just something screwy with what is being taught out there, and it is difficult to pin point it. I know that God is out there. I know that the bible is his word. But the "Christian" community leaves me searching for answers still. (That is not intended to knock any Christian on this forum.)
God has promised to open the "eyes of our understanding, (Eph 1:18 The eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that ye may know what is the hope of his calling, and what the riches of the glory of his inheritance in the saints), not the throats of our credulity,(Mat. 23:24 Ye blind guides, which strain at a gnat, and swallow a camel).
Your earlier post about "organized religion" is absolutely correct. Jesus never established a religion, and all the "organized religions" usurp the authority of Christ, and teach things which will never be found in the Bible.
(Most of the teachings that dominate what are called "Christian" churches, were the inventions of Augustine of Hippo, a brilliant man, converted to Christianity, but full of pagan philosophy which he introduced into Christian doctrine.)
Hank