I knew it.
And, you don't have a sense of humor.
So much for the stereotype of "jolly" fat people.
The lack of a sense of humor regarding food issues is not unusual for those of us who fight the battle! :~)
I've been fighting it all my life. When I finally came to terms with the fact that I was the only one to "blame", that I needed to accept responsibility, and needed to accept my psychological dependence on food, could I start to get more "light-hearted" about the whole thing and even joke about it.
It's an unbelievably tough battle. Food, cheap, easy, wonderfully delicious, and deadly, is everywhere and very engrained in our society, culture, family relationships, and social institutions. Just imagine a family gathering without high calorie food! Some people can walk away from it without a second thought. My husband is one. He considers eating a necessary but annoying part of life. Whereas I can easily obsess over food, especially with what I can't eat. Why the difference, who knows? I spent many years angry about it, finally gave up the anger and decided to develop a sense of humor about it---but it's not easy!