It was plain ole’ scary. It is very sobering to realize that you hold someone’s life in your hand. In my case, the guy was 40 and had spent more of his life in custody than he had out. He killed a 22 year old drug dealer over $400 in bad cocain. He even showed us how he stabbed the guy with an 8 inch blade that went through the heart. Yet, he tried to explain that he didn’t REALLY mean to kill the young man.... even though he admitted he did chase him down and corner him. The guy just should have given the $400 dollars back.
Yep, I would have done the same thing. You stab someone in the chest with an 8 inch blade, you meant to kill him or otherwise to great bodily harm. The intent is there.
He might have wished afterwards that he didn’t mean for it to end that way, but his actions speak for themselves.