I have read both of your posts. you and your husband really had some battles but it sounds like you fought the together and I am sorry he got Alzheimer’s and amazed at how much you cared for him. I love this board because I think there are six people like me on it and that’s it lol. New Yorkers with NO real outdoors experience and I feel like I get a peek into another world. Its awesome.
I got fired after one night because of memory issues after taking a job for the fist tie in six years. Funny thing is, I took a 4 hour graphics test in the city last month (that’s what I sued to do) and passed it even though only five percent pass. I remember the skills I learned before the injury well. Alas, I didn’t get hired because no one wants to hire someone with a five year gap from a head injury. I could deliver food for some extra money. I don’t know what the future holds.
Since you have a skill, perhaps you could do some volunteer work. since you live in an urban area there must be after school programs, work training programs, etc. where you could teach or use your graphic skills. I speak Spanish and after volunteering 10 to 20 hours a week for a politician was offered a job when an employee left. Worked there for 3 years. Subsequently I ran a resume service for several years, and since then have been self-employed. Now retired and busier than ever. Since you have a fiance, perhaps you can do some of what I mentioned about the PTSD type symptoms. My husband and I used to take turns processing feelings, and now my sweetheart and I do that. We both have done a lot of emotional processing, but sometimes grieve that we are getting old and one of us will die first. We can hold each other and have a good cry about this. I can go into more details at Private Message if you wish.