You are still a Catholic if you were baptized a Catholic. You’ll have to talk to Christ about that at the moment you die.
While we are alive, Jesus is perfect mercy.
At the moment of our death, Jesus is perfect justice.
I believe what I believe, you believe what you believe. I am willing to admit that I am wrong as I so often have been. I try to learn from my mistakes and adjust so as to relieve the inevitable friction that arises from trying to deal with reality under a false premise. I understand the benefit of Christian inspired morality on the masses. It created the most free culture in the human experience. I’m a big fan of morality but still an agnostic.