He meant love your neighbor as yourself. That is, do not put yourself above another. And I say do not put yourself below another for none of us is more worthy. We have all fallen short of the glory of God. Once you have received the precious gift of salvation share it with each one you meet.
No, he meant to love yourself.
You can't love your neighbor AS yourself, if you don't also love YOUR self.
That means this self-abasement that reflects your understanding of what God wants, directly violates Jesus's command to love yourself.
You cannot love yourself AND also be ashamed for existing.