I have kept it under control for the most part, but there are times...
Once or twice in my life, seriously that few times, I saw something someone had done that offended me so much I actually used the word. I’ve never done it in person.
The the last time was about a decade ago and I did it in front of my second wife. I had to explain my though process to her, explaining why I was so upset and what I meant by it.