“Are you on the right forum?!”
Are you??
Yes. See, seeking counsel of a priest, having faith in God (praying), and not getting yourself medicated into a stupor are VALID ways to deal with grief, which is what the OP is about. You however apparently consider that to make someone a complete nutcase.
Ya might want to read Mr. Robinson’s many postings about what this place is based upon before digging your hole further.