See, it’s that rathful vengeful stuff that I reject. I think it was made up by men to frighten people. But a true God would not strive to frighten people. If His purpose is for people to live a moral life, then he would take pleasure in the moral lives of all His children whether they were Christian, Jew, Muslim, Hindu, etc.—including non-believers.
But this has nothing to do with size. It has everything to do with wisdom and reason.
Your wisdom is foolishness - making God into an idol.
When you stand before Him and explain that you believed in a different God - and that you rejected His payment for your sin because your “superior” wisdom told you to... I wouldn’t want to be you.
Fortunately, while you are alive there is time to repent and turn to Him.
I wish the best for you.
I think that your 'god' was made up by SATAN; to lull them into that lake you have been told doesn't exist.
Acts 17:2
And according to Paul's custom, he went to them, and for three Sabbaths reasoned with them from the Scriptures.
http://topicalbible.org/r/reasoned.htm