[JustPiper]

Dear Quix, your trial tending to your mother is so hard, that unless those who have become the parent, cannot appreciate what sacrifice you are making and the pain from so many corners. May God give you the strength you need to survive. May the Angels let you know it is ok to be human and resentful and replace that with some peace for you
Hugs my friend!

[Quix]

BLESS YOU AND YOURS MANY TONS FOR YOUR SUSTAINING WORDS!!!

I don't THINK I feel that resentful if any at all. Mystified in some respects. Though I realize God is God and always will be God and that I don't HAVE to understand things.

A dear sister about 35 years ago told me The Father wanted me to "rejoice not that I made you so differently [from others] but rejoice IN MY CAPACITY to HOLD YOU IN A HARD PLACE."

I felt it was an awesome, kind of ominous prophetic word at the time. Given the abundant fulfillment of it over the years and again now . . . it has turned out to be even more so. I'm still struggling to get to that place of rejoicing in His capacity to do that though I have at times.

And, I know that we must "walk by faith" even when it's hard and we can't seem to shake loose much of a clue about what's going on.

And, I know that when God operates on me, within me, He seems to have to do it without any or at least without much of my conscious awareness so I don't muck up the surgery.

Nevertheless, IT IS NO FUN!!!! Sigh.

The encouragements such as yours are really desperately longed for water in a long 'Death Valley' trek.

THANKS TRAINLOADS,