But while I would be a liar to say I have never struggled with the paradoxes of God, I do know that I find a great deal of comfort in His paradoxes. What terror it would be if God were not in control- if indeed the forces of darkness could, possibly, gain the upper hand- forever. For, if indeed God is not soveriegn, how could He possibly determine the end of things? If He cannot control the slight things, why could not the Enemy eventually gain victory? If that were so, we would be set back in the island of the Anglo-Saxons: a small beam of light on us, and a great and unknown ocean of fear and darkness about us- fate ruling, and sending us to the grave and then we would not know hence. Or, worse yet, we would plunge into the terrible world Dostoevsky described: one of utter nihilism, of treachery both within and without, of darkness, of salvation only by suicide.
As it is, we are comforted by the knowledge of the Divine Logos, Christ, working within the world: sustaining all things by His powerful Word- active, not merely a spectator. We see Him victorious- though His kingdom is not yet brought to fullness- and His redemption working. But we also see our responsibilities- we are not conceeded them. Our task is still great, and hardly abated- but we are given great comfort at the same time. For we do not know all, but we do know what we are supposed to do, and we do possess grace to do it. It is not really for us to ask why: Job asked why, and if any man had reason to ask, it was him. But God did not tell him why- because Job did not need to know why.
Thanks for the ping, RnMom- and please pardon my lengthy rambling.