I do not know who your Lord is. You keep mentioning Calvin. If He is your Lord, you are right I do not know him.
The only Lord I know is He, whom to know aright, is life eternal.
John 17:3 And this is life eternal, that they might know thee the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom thou hast sent.
1 John 5:20 And we know that the Son of God is come, and hath given us an understanding, that we may know him that is true, and we are in him that is true, even in his Son Jesus Christ. This is the true God, and eternal life.
I do not know whom you serve, but, "I know whom I have believed, and am persuaded that he is able to keep that which I have committed unto him against that day." (2 Tim. 1:12)
I am not at all concerned what you think about me, but I am greatly concerned what you think (and believe) about God. He never used such expressions as, "Absolute Predestination."
Here are all the verses in Scripture with any form of the word predestine:
Rom. 8:29-30 For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren. Moreover whom he did predestinate, them he also called: and whom he called, them he also justified: and whom he justified, them he also glorified.
Eph. 1:5 Having predestinated us unto the adoption of children by Jesus Christ to himself, according to the good pleasure of his will.
Eph. 1:11 In whom also we have obtained an inheritance, being predestinated according to the purpose of him who worketh all things after the counsel of his own will
I know your are sincere, I know your love the Lord and truly seek to please and honor Him, but, there is something not quite right about the emphasis that Calvinists place on their pet doctrines. Jesus came into the world to save sinners, not to convert them to Calvinism.
Hank