I believe that is YOUR fault, not the Catholic Church's. You must not have paid very close attention in CCD.
I'm a Roman Catholic. I lost my way. I've now come to the realization that I'm not worthy of anything and until I realized that without God in my life it was all meaningless.
Now my path to the Lord took an off-ramp and some rough off road routes. So whether I hold hands (I do sometimes), sing out loud (sometimes to the horror of the people nearby) or just stand there with head bowed in humble thanks for all the Lord's Blessing. We are all united in our love of the Lord.... the rest of you
..... go to hell... hahahahaha . I'm just kiddin....