First, fall in love with Christ.
Did you ever read this,
[Saul] fell to the ground and at the same time heard a voice saying, "Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me?" "Who are you, sir?" he asked. The voice answered, "I am Jesus, the one you are persecuting."
Acts 22:7-8
Do you believe in the seperation of Christ and His Church?