I am not a sales man...And it is clear to me that you do not really want the dogs messing up your yard.
We believe that no man can come to the Jesus unless the Father draws him...I must say I have a similar feeling about truth..if ears are closed they will not hear it...it is just shouting into the wind Rev
I believe you are saved..I believe that you love the Lord..and I also believe you are scared to death of hearing what we have to say..
actually not - Im fascinated though, and just like you - Im probing my own belief system. Look - I am a sinner all day long - I admit it, but with the grace of Jesus Christ and handfull of prayer and the love of my wife (who is a Pastor in our denom) i'm calming down and finally finding a personal relationship with Christ. Behind me are my wilder days. Where that takes me I dont know - point being - Ive found the entrance to the path - just like you - but I dont need someone standing at the gate with a louisville slugger which is what the case has been - you yourself acknowledged as much in freepmail.