I have refused to accept the existence of God, and therefore have no choice but to make my own set.
Maybe some day, you'll read this statement of yours and be able to see all the reasoning errors it reveals. I count three.
Often Christians make God sound like he has this very rigid set of options and standards to go by. They put God in a box and try to limit Him. Nothing could be further from the truth. Many Christians will limit God as far as salvation goes too.
I ask you OWK, what is the harm in asking? Just to be quiet and take a few minutes,with as much sincerity as you have in you, and ask God Himself to make his presence known to you. It's an incredibly simple task with nothing to loose and everything to gain.
I admire your patience even more than your intelligence.
I am curious: do you read threads like these hoping that someone can persuade you that God exists? Or do you just really enjoy debate?