OK, same page so far.
I don't ascribe human traits such as love, hate, vengeance, appearance, faults, anything, to God.
Where do you think humans got their traits?
I don't believe I should know His movements or try to know Him.
And I would say you have achieved smashing success. May you enjoy the satisfaction of the total achievement of your goals.
I know that sounds kinda sarcastic, but I really do wish you joy in your life. Just because I don't understand why you would settle doesn't mean I want you to be unhappy.
Shalom.