The author hits the nail right on the head here. He finally came to the point where he realized that he only wanted to want to be free from his same-sex attraction - but not really.
That final surrender is where Jesus wants us to get to - to realize that no amount of will-power will ever free you from any of the hurts, habits and hang-ups that torment so many followers of Christ. It’s only when we truly submit our selves to God that His Spirit who lives within us can begin to change us.
This is true for anything that gets in the way of getting closer to God. I speak from experience - years of painful experience spent thinking I could ‘do it’ by just sinning less, praying more, being a better person.
It didn’t work for me then; it doesn’t work for me now; it will never work for you, either.
A very poignant story.
Glad he made it out of his hell.
I was raised in church and was saved at eight years old. But later that same year, I was exposed to hardcore gay pornography. On the pages of that magazine, I didn’t observe an unfamiliar-to-me approach to intimacy. I saw men degrading other men in grotesque, dehumanizing ways.And the boys who showed me this porn exposed themselves to me. So, my first sexual experiences, as a uniformed, naive little boy, were at the hands of other males. The shame was soul-crushing. I wished I could undo all of it.
Sexual abuse of minors leads to adolescent or adult faggotry.
WOW! Excellent.
This was uncomfortable, but a great read.
That is a humbling read, that is one tough hombre.
Quit reading after. “There was no acceptable place in society for someone to be grappling with homosexuality in 1989. “
1989? Seriously???
Who you talking "We", Z-face?
I don't even know how I would do that on my phone.
I’ve known several Christians with a similar story.
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