You may want to ask Jesus to reveal truth to you.
I grew upwith some training that God, Jesus and some Holy Ghost existed, were somehow important and it made no real sense to me for decades.
I finally (or all things) happened to turn on christian TV for the first time ever in 2004 and God used that hodgepodge of truth and twisted variations of information to answer some questions. I started asking for discernemt and wisdom to know what bible to believe and church to attend and that i didnt want to be deceived by falsehoods about HIM.
I no longer watch tv at all.
I kept asking questions and God has lead me to learn from all sorts of perspectives, writings, speakers, churches, etc and it keeps being revealed to me, the lies of this world and truth of Jesus, the man, the mission, and the purpose.