Thankfully the big outer doll sends us the Holy Spirit so that we may grow to find Him.
In meditation and prayer, I always see higher consciousness or God as Light. There are many Lights of varying brightness, all existing in Him I see the Holy Spirit as a liquid Golden Light. I see the Angel’s as brighter white Light. And the brightest Light is the Light that shines from God in Heaven down through the portal of darkness to us. I followed it and experienced its bliss when I died.
The Bible is a true and accurate description of the journey and destination.
Thanks for your interesting comments.