Oh I’ve definitely found God lol. Saved my life. Suddenly truck sober and drug free after a life devoted to such, as soon as I asked God what it wanted me to do. That’s all it took to start my 2nd life. I’m living proof God comes to all who seek. Different forms and ways for each person.
Now, I haven’t found YOUR version of God, but not everyone can be as lucky as me.
I want no part of angry self righteous fear-driven people, and their similar god they created in their own image.
Lots of other beliefs claim to have found God but there is only one path.
I pray you are on that path.