Wow...
In my many years studying the characteristics of cults...
Your rant hits several points...
I’m not saying you are in a cult, but your belief system tracks like one...
Probably more of misplaced passion...
Catholicism is a cult, the only cult in which one can be saved. Jesus Christ is the cult leader. The Pope is His prime earthly representative.
(This is so when you apply the generic definition of “cult” rather than the modern, negative-only definition.)
How does my belief system “track like a cult”?
How does my “misplace passion” stand at odds with the historic Catholicism?