Grace is a free gift from God. He calls us to his Son Jesus Christ, but we must accept or deny.
Are you saying that you never said YES Lord come into my life and I accept you as my Lord and Savior?
I denied God’s calling for many years and finally accepted it and haven’t looked back since.
Negates FREE will.
We are not FREE. Scripture makes it clear we are either slaves to sin or slaves to God.
We can only choose when God enables us to. Without God's intervention, we cannot and will not choose God because we are slaves to sin and cannot do otherwise.