You keep making the same mistake. You have taken upon yourself to interpret “your” thinking about God’s Word. Isn’t this risible, that you try interpreting God’s Word contrary to the very Church by whose Divine authority the books in the Bible were assembled some 300 years ago! For the 100th time, the books in the Bible did not fall from the skies and arrange themselves in the chapters and verses in which you find them.
Either you believe in the Church and its power of sole intepretation of God’s word or should you doubt it, you need to toss out your Bible. You can’t have it both ways.
Strange, isn’t it that you would try contradicting the Word as interpreted by a Church for 2000 years by theologians, scholars, historians, saints, and martyrs.
Here’s a humble suggestion. Instead of wallowing in this shallow nonsense that is Bible Christianity and all its contradictory variants, go get a book on Edith Stein, for example, the Jewish philosopher about her interior struggles of this extraordinary woman as well as the great conflicts she resolves before becoming a Catholic convert, Carmelite, and finally a martyrs of the Holocaust. Or if you want to be truly informed, try getting yourself the 10-part series on Catholicism by the scholar and now Bishop Robert Barron.
Unless you have been exposed to the towering intellectual tradition of the Catholic faith, you will find yourself like the proverbial frog in the well accustomed to a shallow depth and crabbed view of Catholicism as we see from the Grahams, Osteens, Schullers, and Jim Jones’s and David Koresh’s of this world. Each trying to convince their low-IQ Oprah-type congregants that their “interpretation of the God’s Word is authentic.
The Bible isn't as complicated as you would like to make.
As John noted, these things have been written so you can know.