AA doesn’t cure the drinking problem. It only makes members not drink by continuing to go to the nightly support group. You’re still an alcoholic if you cannot have a drink without losing control.
I went through some really bad times.
I drink a lot, but usually keep things under control.
My grandfather was an AA member who credited with saving his life.
I went through a phase where I lost control and went to AA to save myself.
What I found was that alcohol wasn’t my direct problem, anger and resentment was. I still drink, but I’ve learned to wash away the anger and resentment.
If you don’t hate yourself for drinking, you can recover as long as you can control some aspects of yourself. Don’t hurt yourself or others and you can live a reasonable life.