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Bryson is so out of it we are not allowed to touch him because he knows its mommy an daddy an he gets excited an moves around an starts pulling things off he tried to take his breathing tube out so they sedated him. This is the hardest thing i have ever had to do we have been through alot with him but this time is different an much more serious. Its scary to see doctors running into your room because of alarms an make sure bryson is fine its scary to see them give him all these meds to calm him down i want my smiling laughing baby back seeing bryson lay on that hospital bed breaks my heart and for some reason it makes me mad i am angry an upset at the same time. I know god has plans for bryson but why does he have to put him through so much to show me that why does my baby have to suffer god is awesome an has given me the best job in the world an that is to be the mommy of bryson but why does he have to scare me to remind me how awesome my job is what the true meaning of love is i will never understand the choices god makes for us but i know he makes them for a reason so i fully trust god to take over an keep his healing hands on bryson an help him pull through this so he can get back to being my smiling laughing baby again♥