Indeed! The polio has left me in a condition which would cause be to be house bound until spring in that climate.
Sorry that you struggle, but glad you find God's grace in your infirmity, which we all have to varying degrees. The devil wants us to follow the counsel of Job's wife, so that he may gain glory, and i have too much believed his faithless lies and react accordingly, but i also reason how can we be conquers/overcomers unless we have that to overcome?
God is for us, and knows of our troubles in this race as Christ endured the like, and walks with us thru it, and will make it all worth when we see Him, whose coming and deliverance we are to look to, which will be sweeter due to the suffering we endured in faith.
And our hope of you is stedfast, knowing, that as ye are partakers of the sufferings, so shall ye be also of the consolation. (2 Corinthians 1:7)