Don't get mad at me. I teach kids like the one you were. Religion is just another subject to them. Some grab it and run some blow it off. Claiming 12 years of Catholic education is not going to cut it. You were a child and you understood as a child.
God Bless you. You have a beautiful name.
After more than 50 years I left the rituals of religion behind me and chose a relationship with Christ. You wouldn't understand if I told you. It's something you must seek without the blinders of religion.
To your credit you were right on one thing; I was a child. A 54 year old child. I now mature and grow in my faith in Jesus. Hopefully you'll grow up one day and leave the catholic rituals behind. 1Cor 13:11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me.
Thank you and yes, God does bless me more than you can imagine.