It sounds as though you're already dealing with the dilemma in a rational manner. That's all any of us can do, and then trust the outcome to God.
Have you enthroned the Sacred Heart in your home?
http://www.catholictradition.org/Two-Hearts/enthronement-3.htm
Another suggestion: St. Louis de Montfort's total consecration to Jesus through Mary.
http://www.fisheaters.com/totalconsecrationmontfort.html
http://www.marian.org/marians/A-New-Day-Dawns-for-Marian-Consecration-4742
More recs:
"Church Militant Field Manual: Special Forces Training for the Life in Christ"
"Officium Divinum" (abridged for use of the laity) Angelus Press
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"Pray, hope, and don't worry. Worry is useless. God is merciful and will hear your prayer." - Padre Pio
Yes and I'll check out the fisheaters link, I've found it to be a great resource in the past. We have a couple of copies of the Angelus Press Divine Office and use Brevmeum on iphone and ipad at home. Based on your recommendation I just threw 3 books by Fr Richard M Heilman into my Amazon shopping cart, including the Church Militant Field Manual.
Thanks