Your statement presumes that the only value you can derive from the Savior’s words must apply to you equally as to John.
With that premise, I can’t wait to see what you do with these inspired words in Matthew...
“So Judas threw the money into the temple and left. Then he went away and hanged himself.”
I didn’t say that every word in the gospel is TRUE ABOUT ME.
I said that everything in the gospel has a meaning that is relevant for me.
You are obviously determined to impose a negative, or preposterous meaning on what I said, even to the point of falsely reporting what I said.
The message to me is not: Go hang yourself.
The message is: Don’t betray Jesus, and don’t commit the sin of despair.
How’s that? Reasonable?