Well, the “many many” Christians who told you that were wrong. The concept of free will, which I explained previously to you, makes clear that God can be omnipotent and good and nonetheless bad things can happen that are not His will. He did not will the Holocaust or Muslim horrors or child abuse, but they take place nevertheless because He has given us freedom, and freedom means people have the possibility of choosing evil as well as God.
If you have been asking these questions for years and no one has given you an answer that satisfies you, the chances are that you are not really receptive to hearing the answers. There are a lot of atheists who really would prefer not to get their questions answered because that would force a real moral choice and change of life for them. That would be a real problem. If you continue to have questions I suggest you go on YouTube and search for Peter Kreeft. He is a philosopher and has better answers than I do. But my fear is that no answer in the world will placate someone who refuses to accept anything and continues to go back over and over and OVER to the idea that a cruel God sends people to hell because they won’t obey arbitrary rules.
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