We are made righteous by Jesus and have access to the great I AM! Why would you not want that?I do do that. I've attended daily Mass since 1984. That's a whole lot of Jesus right there. :)
Attending Mass is not having the Living Christ within you. It is simply attending a service in a building.
Oh how I pray that God will burst in on you and reveal Himself in no uncertain terms to you, mlizzy!!