Of course the spirit of God exists! The spirit of God IS, as the phrase indicates, the spirit OF God...it's not a different person. It IS the spirit of the father in Genesis. Your understanding of it's reality wasn't the understanding of the church until 300 years after the death of Christ.
Thank you for the prayers though...I'll take all I can get!
Dear Friend,perhaps you have not seen the following Early Christian writings that prove your statement wrong...
"The three days before the luminaries were created are types of the TRINITY , GOD [the Father], HIS WORD [the Son], AND HIS WISDOM [the Holy Spirit]."-(Theophilus of Antioch To Autolycus 2:10; 2:15; 2:22; Jurgens, p. 75-76)-[c. 116-181 A.D.]
"He cannot have God for his Father who does not have the Church for his Mother. If anyone outside the ark of Noah was able to escape, then perhaps someone outside the pale of the Church may escape.... The Lord says, 'THE FATHER AND I ARE ONE' [John 10:30] and again, it is written of the FATHER, SON, AND HOLY SPIRIT, 'AND THE THREE ARE ONE.' -Saint Cyprian 1 John 5:7-8 (c. 250 A.D.)
"It is necessary, however, that the Divine Word [Jesus Christ] be UNITED WITH THE GOD OF THE UNIVERSE; AND THE HOLY SPIRIT MUST ABIDE AND DWELL IN GOD. THEREFORE THE DIVINE TRINITY must be gathered up and brought TOGETHER IN ONE, a Summit, as it were -- I mean, the OMNIPOTENT GOD OF THE UNIVERSE.....we must believe in GOD, the Father Almighty; and in Christ Jesus, His Son; and in the Holy Spirit; and that the WORD IS UNITED TO THE GOD OF THE UNIVERSE. 'For,' says He, 'THE FATHER AND I ARE ONE' and 'I AM IN THE FATHER, AND THE FATHER IN ME.' Thus both the Divine Trinity and the sacred proclamation of the monarchy will be preserved."-262 AD(Dionysius of Rome to Dionysius of Alexandria 1-3; Jurgens, p. 249)
I wish you a Blessed evening!