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Hi Plain Talk- I don’t mind sharing at all-

I beleive what I ghad was a very high fever induced due to peritinitis from perforated intestines- Docs didn’t realize the extent of the damage until they operated that night- but suffice it to say I was a very sick pup- the fever was what I beleive to be the cause of hallucinations- I don’t know for sure, but I donb’t beleive I actually died- I think I mgiht have been quite close as I experienced what many who claim NDE’s have said happened with htem- and what is common with foklks very near death (soem claim to have actually died and come back to tell the story)

What happened was I went into convulsions- I remember the hospital bed flipping end for end, the room spinning, and hten the next sensation I had was everythign goign blank briefly, then I felt myself tumbling downward and descendign into hell- I felt extreme excruciating suffocating heat (which could have been a sensation caused by the fever mind you) and then I epxerienced sand engulfign me and further suffocating me- I rmeember tryign to breathe in and fillign my lungs with sand- but I coudl still breathe somehow- but hte sensation fo suffocating was terrible- Insects covered my body and I remember that I couldn’t get rid of them because I was trapped by the sand and couldn’t move- I heard screams and wailing (Which ‘could have been’ the doc and nurses yellign to each other tryign to cool me down- and could have been muffled which I mistook for screamign and wailing- I can’t say for sure)-

I then heard what I took to be God’s voice saying My son- I will give you a test and if you pass, you will not be condemned to hell’ (Which is NOT biblical by any stretch of the uimagination) I remember beign excited abotu hte test because hte heat and suffocation was too much to bear, and then I heard the voice say soemthign alogn htel iens of “You will need to count these sounds”

I then heard a ‘clang’ then aniother- and I counted them- but hten they became faster and pretty soon they were too close togehter to count any longer- I remember weeping because I thought I was doomed to hell forever

Then hte voice said “Don’t worry- there is no hell, you don’t exist” which you would think woudl be a ‘good thing’ BUT it was NOT- at that point I sensed ‘compelte nothingness’ and hten an overwhelming sense of aloneness- I can’t really expalin the terror of this nothingness/aloneness except to say it was like I was just a ‘conscious energy’ that was compeltely alone in the vast universe floating aroudn forever alone- compeltely isolated from God and heaven - not feelign anythign except for loneliness and isolation and abandonment- It wasn;’t the physical terrors of hell, but it was a sense of loss of self and importance and abandonment thaqt really scared the dickens out of me-

Note thaqt I do NOT beleive in pergatory, or in being prayed out of hell once there- or that God will give peopel tests when they end up there- but this was just somethign I experienced as clear as day like aq ‘vivid nightmare’ or lucid dreaming or a dobule nightmare where you feel you are really awake and really experiencign hte the evil i nthen ightmare- I do bleive it was all just a result of the high fever causing the brain to misfire or soemthing- and when it did it brought up perhaps soem of my latent fears into a vivid ‘reality’ or what I took at the time to be a reality-

I’ve studied the phenomenom of NDE’s a bit, and I’m not convinced that peopel actually experience after death experiences, but perhaps more they experience misfirings of the synapses of hte brain that cause VERY lucid and ‘real-like’ hallucinations- The brain is a compelx thing, and I think misfirnings i nthe brain can cause such visions- I will not however stand firm on htis- as I just dfon’t know for sure what the actual truth is, but in my case, I think probably it was just the brain freakign out due to a near death experience coupled with a very high fever-