I lost my girlfriend last night to a sudden cardiac arrest at the movie theatre
No symptoms or history of heart trouble we were smiling and holding hands and then she cried out in pain and was gone despite the factcthat there were doctors and nurses in the audience who performed cpr and shocked her twice with an aed even before ems arrived
She was a school teacher 40 years old and leaves behind a beautiful 5 year old son and 3 year old daughter
Life is pointless to me now
she kept me sane
She was beautiful kind caring obedient and was loved and appreciated by 100s of her students and good friends
I seriously question the existence of a God that would inflict that kind of pain
Life is pointless to me now
Your life is not pointless to her, nor to them.
Oh Rome2000.... I am so sorry for your loss, and for your pain, and know that there are so many folks here who can can speak to your feelings in a much more meaningful, and touching way, but well, while wholly inadequate, here I am.
I was awakened by our dog, and before I crawled back into bed, I stopped to check my mail, and FR... and there, at the top of the page was your heartbreaking post - in a prayer thread for a family who lost a child...
All I can tell you my FRiend, is that I could not go back to sleep without responding as you cried out; and that if it helps; my belief is that God does not inflict us with the pain in our lives. That He is, instead, there to help us endure it, in encouraging each of us to reach out when such seemingly unendurable pain strikes another of us...
May He rest her immortal soul, and bring comfort and strength to yours, dear FRiend. Then, with that strength, may you be able to help her beautiful children in this terrible time.
Do take care FRiend, and take time.
May God bless.
Tatt
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“I lost my girlfriend last night to a sudden cardiac arrest at the movie theatre
No symptoms or history of heart trouble we were smiling and holding hands and then she cried out in pain and was gone despite the factcthat there were doctors and nurses in the audience who performed cpr and shocked her twice with an aed even before ems arrived
She was a school teacher 40 years old and leaves behind a beautiful 5 year old son and 3 year old daughter
Life is pointless to me now
she kept me sane
She was beautiful kind caring obedient and was loved and appreciated by 100s of her students and good friends
I seriously question the existence of a God that would inflict that kind of pain
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No, no, Rome2000. Your life isn’t pointless—no life is ever pointless.
Don’t you think her children need you now? If you go into a tailspin, they will lose their compass. Grieve together; remember her, perhaps have some sort of family ceremony, whatever helps the three of you get through this terrible time.
What happened to her terrible, and I can’t imagine your sadness. It is understandable. Perhaps the little ones could cuddle with you at bedtime; maybe even sleep next to you for a few days. Human contact is important at times like these.
She sounds like she was a wonderful teacher—that is her legacy.
Maybe someone could help you organize a service with her students; they could say something, or perhaps put notes on an Easter Lily or church wall, telling everyone what she meant to them.
Your girlfriend clearly made a difference—please don’t give up. Her children need you.
All my love and prayers,
Julie
p.s., it is Holy Week; I don’t know your names but I will pray for you and your family, and God will know who I’m talking about. Sometimes we get mad at God, but he’s probably used to it. I have to believe there is a purpose in this world.