I think you mean you have rejected the Jesus of the Bible because He isn’t what you think He should be. Hence your outrage over “Thou shalt not rape” not being the eleventh commandment.
And another thing. Look at how many Christians there are in the world. Look at the Christian populations of Africa, Europe, Asia, South America, Central America. Look at the Catholic church. The vast, vast majority of Christians find Socialism to be perfectly compatable with the teachings of Jesus. Only a tiny handful, the white American conservative branch, just knows... KNOWS... that everyone is wrong except them.
Then they say atheists are arrogant. Heh.