Well, when that leap of faith hits me, and verifies that what you have written is indeed the truth, I’ll let you know. In the meantime, I’ll just keep going along with what God has in store for me. Thanks
OK, it's a free county, they say. Your choice. As you say, if there's any change, let me know --
Ciao --
I suspect that the god you are invoking is possibly not The God of The Holy Bible, because here's what His Son, the only one begotten in the flesh said privately to His special disciples concerning the multitude of people who had just been listening to His preaching on the Kingdom of Heaven:
"Because it is given* unto you to know** the mysteries of the Kingdom of Heaven, but to them it is not given.
For whosoever hath, to him shall be given, and he shall have more abundance: but whosoever hath not, from him shall be taken away even that he hath,
Therefore speak I to them in parables: because they seeing see not; and hearing they hear not, neither do they understand.
And in them is fulfilled the prophecy of Esaias, which saith 'By hearing ye shall hear, and shall not understand; and seeing ye shall see, and not perceive:
for this people's heart is waxed gross. and their ears are dull of hearing, and their eyes they have closed; lest at any time they should see with their eyes and hear with their ears, and should understand with their heart, and should be converted, and I should heal them.'
But blessed are your eyes, for they see: and your ears, for they hear.
For verily I say unto you, 'That many prophets and righteous men have desired to see those things which ye see, and have not seen them; and to hear which ye hear, and have not heard them.'
Hear ye therefore the parable of the sower."
(Mt. 13:11b-18; see Is. 6:9-10, Mk 4:11-12, Lk. 8:10)
* given -- This is an act of special revelation for them and for believers yet to come.
** know -- Gk ginoskoh, to gain an understanding, to perceive
This indicates that those without faith shall not perceive or understand what The God tells them, even directly from His mouth in special revelation, their spirit being dead to Him. But about the "leap of faith" which you dismiss as not of import, His Spirit says concerning faith to the Hebrews through the writer:
"By faith Enoch was translated that he should not see death; and was not found, because The God had translated him: for before his translation he had this testimony, that he pleased The God.
But without faith it is impossible to please Him: for he that cometh to The God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him."
(Heb. 11:5-6; see Rom. 3:10-11, Ps. 14:1-3, Ps. 53:1-4)
Only those who have taken the small step (not a leap) to trust in the Lord Jesus Anointed/Messiach/Christ and consign his/her life and future to Him can please The God, for only such commitment can give one ears that hear and understand, and eyes that see and perceive the things that The God has offered in exchange for one's fealty.
You statement seems to indicate that you have not taken this step. Is that so? Without exercising faith in The Messiach, as Enoch did, the future of what The God seems to have in store for you seems to look kind of grim -- IMHO
Making this observation with regret --